blue i

what happens
when our lips touch

the world changes for an instant
our bodies and our beings
move toward each other
in absolute longing. it has always
been like this
between us

so how do we separate
bodiesfromminds
or how do we get
our heads to at least
agree
when mine is screaming
to recoil and dive in at the same time
and the only thing you know for sure is you love me

side-step

you speak to me
and my face flames
up
the curiosity of your
questions
and answers remembered
the side-step dance
between us

and i hate it
hate the way you stay in my mind
the way i can't keep it under wraps
it slips out
now i get egged on with a smile
then we pretend we're strangers
ignore our confession
as if it never happened
but like ghosts that don't really exist
the words between us haunt me
but how my heart jumps
when i see you

sand

we were making
sand spirals in the starlight
for the moment we were
free

of all the no's & yeses
questions unanswered
just if we could stay
there
for longer
it would be okay
if as being together
was that and then
two happier people
would be hard to find

swim with me

if you would
swim with me to the other side
through the fear
and the cold
maybe
we could
rise as from baptism to something new

the bridge between us
seems broken
who is to blame
if blame will help
how this will end?

if you could
push that wall away
that holds you stiff
and let the water flow
you could be happy
but maybe i'm just
seeing me in you
and this is what i need to do
how can i feel so mute and dead
now so soon

mute between us

words fall mute between us
and implode inside me
gurgling and frothing
my insides

outside somehow skin
holds it all together
the mush and the mute

words die voiceless
inside me
and slowly seep away
like old blood between
my legs

our death lies silent
in my head
some fear that holds
me in this

shammed and shattered
peace to piece
lost

room

i am an empty room
falling apart
i am lost but trying
to hold it together
i want to be able to change
and stick to it for
a good while
i want to stop this
fall from grace

question

what is this then
loving each other
like this
and in dreams
will determination
hold us for this while?

dream 23 March 07

tiny bird
caught in a room
tiny bird
someone big wants you
to catch you and crush you
'no leave her'
tiny bird fly out of that window
quick!
but i catch you like a butterfly
cupped in my hands
i hold you delicately
in one hand
and set you free